CLUES

You know … it occurs to me , after all these years that there have been so many directional clues that I have not considered along the way to here .

Maybe I'm a little slow or mybe I just lost focus for a while... or maybe , and this is the part that scares me, maybe I have a fatal flaw when it comes to women, it's not that the women I have known were bad, far from it, I have been extremely lucky to have known every one of them, but I am sure now, that as much as I would have wished it were not so, in every case we were not suited to each other.

Is it the accumulating years that lead me to believe that the ones that I did not explore fully are the very ones I may have had the best chance with? Or is it just that crazy “road not taken” thing that does it?

I would have liked to grow with someone, but it seems that is not my fate.

I have wanted that thing , that ubiquidious “spark” I think in some cases I have tried to build the spark bu that can't work. Other times I have hoped that the spark would come, or that it wasn't really nescicary but the truth is I have always wanted N ora Charles... you know Nick's wife... from “The Thin Man” books.... Ballsy, interogative, gutsy, faithful. Don't get me wrong every woman I've known has had these traits even if they didn't know it, I guess it was more about the other things we both brought along.

Still.... more than anything else I have wanted a partner, a partner in truth to share it all with without fear or shame. You see … My problem is I have seen it … I have seen quite a few couples that have achieved that balance, kind in nature and spirit, accepting, loving.... not perfect, Hell no, not that … but considerate and considered.

As much as I love and admire these lucky couples... my envy is almost too distracting.

Yes of course I want what they have... I'd love to find my match but maybe that is not for all of us, or maybe it's just for the ones that can read the clues.

More in justice

Protest Rally - Against Iranian Election, Melbourne
Ok It seems that it will never end ... Fear political unrest, Killings in Burma , threats in Iran & fixed elections... Hmmm wonder where they could've got the idea that that kind of thing could be done? Refugees moving from one place to another in desperate attempts to keep their families together I hear that is what we all want to keep families together ... but apparently that only applies to certain families.
Nuclear games between the U.S. and Korea, Iran, China ...
Somalia, India... well you get it.
What  can be done ... another protest, more signs , more interviews on the Tele.
Do we need to be told that we have built our lives on the wrong scale?
How can we manage to get up and do these useless things we do while on every front we are cming to the crisis point?
All the issues and situations that we have put on the back burners for so long are now all screaming for attention simultaneously!
It may get to the point where we will have to STOP EVERYTHING in order to get it straightened out.

                                            
 

I can't say for sure...

There may be some kind of reason to this whole thing, logic would be too much to hope for but maybe the world is supposed to do something beside respond to the whims of mankind... I really do want there to be a point... more than wanting, needing, getting.
Times like tonight are when the waste of it all gets to me...
Fighting over god , money, love, hate, gender , sexuality ...  all so small... and in the end they just take us away from doing anything that moves all of us forward. "all of us" ... funny, there isn't really an "all of us" such a tiny planet and we have never enjoyed peace and prosperity... through all our time there has always been someone that has had to endure incredible hardships to make all the good times possible.
Look at all we can do and yet right now in so many places people are dying of hunger... Hunger!
How can this be?
Money and food everywhere!
Or ... is it!
Who has enough?
What segment of our world has people that have enough?

A Decidedly Black Post- (advice for young lifers! ) part 1 of an exclusive 1,000,000 part Series

That's it friends, . I've finally flipped it!

I'm going to keep writing on my favourite subject "Why humans (myself included) are so damn stupid", for a million posts or until the world's problems are solved... or fail to do so!

and then...

I'm going over to my window, to slide it open and shout... "I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore!

I've had enough of these life sucking idiots constantly assaulting me with their half-baked ideas about how the world is shaped, conveniently over looking the very basic fact that we should be shaping our world and we would if we could get up off our big fat asses for more than 5 minutes to get involved

I can no longer take the endless waste and the resistance to truth that the way we live has brought.

So whatcha you gonna do about it ... Mr. Schmarty, pants?

well... glad You asked!

First we gotta go way back... to take a look at all the crap we refused to give proper consideration the first time round.

Not quite back to the time when the earth was cooling... but almost.

Although it might pay to take a look at that later... who knows... Maybe way back then somehow a molecule of "pure evil" was burred deep in the middle of what world become our earth and it's been screwing with us ever since!

I like that explanation better than the one that goes, we're Just stupid, evil and doomed to repeat every ridiculous error over and over until we blow ourselves up... or destroy our environment or create some other catastrophe that brings about our own end.

So ... Let me take you back to the early days of mankind ... back to a time when humans were just starting to build some sort of cohesive society ... there were the hard workers , the followers, the slackers, the damaged.  & the different. All equal and all doing their part to make what they had better ... at night when the work was done and the settlement slowed to it's after hours pace

the slackers said to the Hardworkers "Slow down man you're gonna burn yourself out"

The followers said "yes that's right" 

The Damaged said " We're  all doomed!"

To which the followers said "yes... that's right!"

The Different said "we weed to take a fresh look at what we all need!"

To which the followers replied yes, that's right !

To which the hard workers said "What you all need to do is to pull your fingers out and get to work!"

To which the followers said "YES...That's right!"

And we have been running around in that same cycle ever since, and our little cycle has gone an to cause untold hardships all round.

(the point to me is that they're all right)

Now ... Consider this...

No matter what you believe... we can all pretty much agree that at some point there were a very small number of humans ... Yes?

and we and everybody else are descendents of those few humans. . . yes?

So for all these millennia we have of course been wiping ourselves out... wars, racism, crime, genocide... all the countless little terrors we inflict upon each other to bring us to our current position known as "the Brink", "up the creek" or my personal fave ... "All f**ked up!"

Does that sound bright to you?

So our little cycle has served us badly by making profit from misery acceptable, placing arbitrary borders between humans, and leaving us separated, unfocused & unable to effect any substantive change for the better for human kind. 

Does anyone recall?... isn't that what we're supposed to be doing here?

TBC-

Too Long

A few months ago , I took a run down to Port Campbell to see the 12Apostles in Victoria , Australia but due to an accident on the road the route was closed so I had to turn around and head back to Melbourne 8 + hours round trip ... with no pay off... Granted it was a much worse time for the accident victim, last weekend I got the chance to finish that trip.
click the kink and see what I saw.
It's a fantastic part of the world.

I think it is all too complicated.

When I Think that I have spent all these years trying to do the right thing only to find myself in one uncomfortable situation after another... is it so wrong to want to be loved honestly & with honor?

All this searching was left me thinking... have I been wasting my time?

Is it even possible to find considerate love in these times? and what does it mean anyway?

All I know is I've come so far and I just won't take a life of sniping and bitching at my partner was it always this hard... or am I just not cut out for it?

Let's Think About our Environment

 

So what if you had only one day left, one day for it all to come good, one day to fulfill the potential so many have seen in you, one day to make sure your kids would be safe... what would you do?

ok let hope we all have many years left to breathe the air, watch the sunset, and rise, swim in the ocean or rivers... so now we're gonna live so my question is the same ...

what will you do to make it it all to come good,  to fulfill the potential so many have seen in you, to make sure your kids would be safe... what will you do?